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Themes in "The Picture of Dorian Gray"

Yay, an excuse to talk about my favorite gothic novel! On the surface, The Picture of Dorian Gray seems to be a tragedy about what happens when you give yourself over to self-indulgence and sin. Dorian has been granted eternal youth so as to live out all his passions, and he spends his life becoming progressively more depraved until his conscience weighs upon him to the point of madness, and he destroys his own horcrux. Hedonism is bad, right? But it’s a little counter-intuitive for such a moral to come from Oscar Wilde. Why would Oscar Wilde, of all people, write a story that seems to condemn hedonism? Well… I don’t think he does. The book just doesn’t read that way. It’s a luxuriously self-indulgent, sensual book! I wouldn’t like it so much if it boiled down to “hedonism is bad.” I think that this book is a metatextual critique of Wilde’s own philosophy. The Picture of Dorian Gray is not really about beauty, or pleasure, or sin. It is about art. It is about the nature of art and it’s relationship to the artist, and to the audience. It is a cautionary tale not about the dangers of hedonism, but the dangers of taking art too seriously. At least, that seems to be what it is according to its author. I’m not saying that I know definitively what the author’s intentions were, or that authors’ interpretations of their work are the only true and correct ones. Ultimately, an author’s interpretation of his or her own work is just one interpretation among many, and any true piece of art can be interpreted many different ways. But, looking at Dorian Gray through the lens of its own author might be the best way to answer this question. So, I am going to analyze that. For fun! At first glance, Wilde’s preface doesn’t seem to have anything to do with the story. It’s a really short philosophical argument. Actually, it reads more like a pretentious internet comment, by making a bunch of beautifully-worded controversial claims and then sitting back and waiting for you to respond to them, almost as if it’s daring you to argue. "The artist is the creator of beautiful things. To reveal art and conceal the artist is art’s aim. The critic is he who can translate into another manner or a new material his impression of beautiful things. […] It is the spectator, and not life, that art really mirrors. Diversity of opinion about a work of art shows that the work is new, complex, and vital. When critics disagree, the artist is in accord with himself. We can forgive a man for making a useful thing as long as he does not admire it. The only excuse for making a useless thing is that one admires it intensely. All art is quite useless." There’s a lot more philosophical rambling that I cut out, but the short of it is this — art exists for its own sake. It exists to be admired, to be enjoyed. It exists to be beautiful, and that’s it. Anything that anyone else gets from it is simply what they get from it, and it says more about them than it does about the art. Creating art for any other primary purpose misses the point, if it isn’t outright dangerous. Now, generally in literary analysis it’s a faux pas to psychoanalyze the author based on their work (which Wilde would probably agree with, since he writes that art should “conceal the artist”). There’s a lot of weird philosophy in this book, mostly put forth by the character of Lord Henry Wotton. Although Wilde identifies Lord Henry as something of a caricature of himself, we cannot say whether anything Lord Henry says is what Wilde really thinks. But this? The preface is written without the voice of a character or the context of a story. This is the author speaking as himself, in his own words, and therefore we can conclude that this is what he really thinks. That means that the only thing we can really say about Wilde and his philosophy based on this book alone comes from this preface. Why is this preface even here? Why is it attached to this book? It might just be a futile attempt to cover his own ass, since he says things like “There is no such thing as a moral or immoral book” and “Vice and virtue are to the artist materials for an art.” That’s basically facing down the inevitable controversy that this book would generate and saying, “don’t look at me, it’s just a story. It’s your fault for taking it seriously.” But, it’s probably also presented here as a framework within which to interpret the following story. Or, actually, wait, we’re not supposed to interpret it because it exists for its own sake, right? But why else would the this be the preface to Dorian Gray, if the story wasn’t meant to prove the preface’s point? One more bit of metatextual content I want to bring up: Wilde said this about his characters: "Basil Hallward is what I think I am: Lord Henry what the world thinks me: Dorian what I would like to be — in other ages, perhaps" So, all three of Dorian Gray‘s main characters are meant to represent the author himself from various perspectives. Basil, the innocent and lovelorn painter, is how Wilde perceives himself. Lord Henry is how society perceives Wilde; he smoothly makes controversial philosophical statements about hedonism and beauty and whatnot, but doesn’t actually believe most of what he’s saying. And what a cryptic thing to say about Dorian, the naive-boy-turned-corrupt libertine. I guess I could interpret that as Wilde saying that he’d theoretically like to have the sheer daring and shamelessness needed to actually live out all of Henry’s philosophies. So… if that’s the case, then that puts a big question mark over Dorian’s entire character. If the message of the book is “hedonism is bad,” then why would Wilde want to be Dorian, even hypothetically? Dorian’s depravity is clearly a bad thing, right? Why would Wilde write him that way, then? Because the book’s moral isn’t about hedonism, it’s about art. Wilde warns the reader, “All art is at once surface and symbol. Those who go beneath the surface do so at their peril. Those who read the symbol do so at their peril.” But… that’s exactly what I plan to do. Sorry, Oscar. So, let’s actually talk about the story now. The Picture of Dorian Gray is a weirdly paradoxical work for the reasons I just spelled out — it seems like it should be condemning hedonism, but it doesn’t quite. It seems like it is a story about a man whose life steadily ruined by pleasure-seeking at the expense of all else, and yet… it’s just so decadent, this book. It’s full of philosophy about hedonism and the nature of good and evil, and it’s hard to tell just how much is espoused by its author and how much is condemned. Often the philosophy comes through Lord Henry, but sometimes it’s just there in the narration. And I love this book for that reason. I love thinking about stuff like that, so much. I love that this book practically smells like opium and tastes like rich chocolate. The reason why I’m so interested in Wilde’s relationship to his own work here is because I agree with a lot of the philosophy presented in it. I know that Dorian Gray is being corrupted by Lord Henry’s influence, and I can see how that happens. But… still. This book is interesting to me because it seems to simultaneously espouse and decry the philosophy presented in it, which is why I think it’s a critique. “Let’s let this philosophy play a bit, and see what it does.” What if someone really did live the kind of life that Wilde himself was accused of living? When is hedonism healthy, and when is it not? Where are the limits? Henry is Wilde’s caricature of himself. A lot of readers hate him for just how infuriating he is. All Lord Henry really does is spout controversial and kind of offensive statements. I’m sure we all know at least one person like that on the internet. Henry’s like the super intellectual version of a troll; he just says stuff to make people deeply uncomfortable and see how they’ll react. But he’s also persuasive — he’s a Mephistophelian character with a “low, musical” voice. He views Dorian almost like a science experiment. He admits that influence is evil, but then actively goes after an impressionable and naive boy to turn him into… well, whatever that portrait looked like in the last chapter. In chapter 2, he makes a long speech about how a man should “live out his life fully and completely […] give form to every feeling, expression to every thought, reality to every dream.” In short, screw Victorian morality. Life is to be experienced, so drink deeply of all it has to offer instead of wasting it constraining yourself. His best line, in my opinion, is: “The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it. Resist it, and your soul grows sick with longing for the things it has forbidden to itself, with desire for what its monstrous laws have made monstrous and unlawful.” —Chapter 2 I kind of agree with this. Kind of. I’ve written a whole answer on this quote before, so let me sum up — I do think that temptation is impossible to resist. The more you attempt to repress your desires, the more intensely you feel those desires. The best thing to do to avoid being tempted by genuinely dangerous things is to either satisfy the temptation using some safer outlet or otherwise redirect it, or to avoid potential temptations altogether. The second line of this quote makes it clear that what Henry is really saying here is, “don’t let society’s stupid restrictions keep you from living your best life.” And… yeah. If society shames you for being gay, whip out the rainbow colors! A lot of things (especially “sexual deviancy”) are only “temptations” because society and culture says that they’re wrong, not because they’re actually morally wrong. That’s an important distinction. We’ll get back to that. I believe that the difference between a temptation and a desire is that you can only be tempted by something dangerous and forbidden. If feeling lust as a young woman (or man) is considered morally wrong, then sex is a “temptation” — as soon as it’s considered a normal part of existing as a human, then it’s suddenly not a “temptation,” it’s just desire, and is a lot easier to deal with. You can find a safe outlet for it without feeling any shame, and without making any dumb mistakes out of sheer desperation. Another thing Harry says is, “The aim of life is self-development. To realize one’s nature perfectly — that is what each of us is here for.” —Chapter 2 Yes! I have no argument here. None at all. However, reading between the lines, it seems as though Harry’s definition of “realizing one’s nature perfectly” is just experiencing everything in life and living it to its fullest, literally without distinguishing between good and bad experiences, or good and evil deeds. “Every experience is of value,” he says at one point. I don’t define self-development this way. My definition is complete self-awareness. If you’re self-aware, then you can be as self-indulgent as you want because you know where your limits are. Drinking at a party is fine, but you have to know your alcohol tolerance. Dorian buys into this philosophy pretty hard. By chapter 11, his whole life has become one of pleasure, and… I’m still not disagreeing with a lot of the philosophy put forth by this novel: “The worship of the senses has often, and with much justice, been decried, men feeling a natural instinct of terror about passions and sensations that seem stranger than themselves […] But it appeared to Dorian Gray that the true nature of the senses had never been understood, and that they had remained savage and animal merely because the world had sought to starve them into submission or to kill them by pain, instead of aiming at making them elements of a new spirituality, of which a fine instinct for beauty was to be the dominant characteristic.” —Chapter 11 This is why I love this novel, okay? I agree with this too. I have a fine instinct for beauty myself. Here, Dorian considers that maybe people in his society consider sensuality to be animalistic and savage only because they haven’t engaged with it at all, so it appears strange and dangerous. I also think that sensuality has been unfairly demonized for far too long, sometimes to the point where enjoying anything is sinful. I think it’s important to confront one’s passions (i.e. desires and emotions) and find a way to deal with them that’s both safe and satisfying. Like Dorian, I don’t have much patience for asceticism, or at least for the notion that it’s the most moral and spiritual way to live one’s life. Dorian attends church sometimes just out of curiosity, just becuase he finds it enjoyable or interesting, and he jumps around between different spiritualities the same way he collects jewels, textiles, and perfume: “But he [Dorian] never fell into the error of arresting his intellectual development by any formal acceptance of creed or system […] no theory of life seemed to him to be of any importance compared with life itself. […] He knew that the senses, no less than the soul, have their spiritual mysteries to reveal.” —Chapter 11 Jeez, I feel called out by this. This concept of jumping around between different belief systems, using belief as a tool… that’s basically Chaos Magic in a nutshell. “Nothing is true, everything is permitted” definitely sounds like something Lord Henry would say. And I certainly don’t think that sensuality and spirituality are mutually exclusive, in fact, I think that the former can be a means of experiencing the latter. I worship Dionysus, for crying out loud. Often, the answer I give when someone on Quora asks me why I believe in magic or gods or anything else without evidence is “pleasure.” And yet… my life could not be more different from Dorian’s. Perhaps the darkest part of my mind is something like Dorian, but in real life, I look like a stereotypical Victorian ingenue who’s always the first to die in a gothic novel like this one, and I’m quite pure and unsullied. I don’t do anything but sit in my dorm room and write on Quora all day. At parties, I freeze up and don’t speak to anyone. I might develop a taste for alcohol next year, but for now I don’t really like the taste of it. I’ve never done any kind of drug and don’t plan to, I just eat a lot of sugar. I have no love life or sex life. I value pleasure becuase I can’t enjoy myself for the life of me, because I worry about everything all the time and waste energy on it. I’m actively working on that. I’m not Dorian, and that’s probably why I can get away with hedonism. See… here’s the thing with our protagonist. He takes Harry much more seriously than he should. Harry doesn’t actually believe what he’s saying. He just says stuff, to be controversial and shocking. That’s what he does. But Dorian buys it, hard. Harry’s waxing lyrical about how there’s nothing in the world but youth and Dorian has the whole world at his fingertips because he’s pretty, makes Dorian obsessively concerned with his appearance. He barters his soul on a whim. And, then he proceeds to live the kind of lifestyle that Harry advocates for but doesn’t have the balls to actually commit to. He’s beautiful, rich, and able to do whatever he likes, which he often does. He has it all, but the truth is, he’s not really getting anything out of any experience. He goes through life like a passive spectator. This is probably because of the hedonism paradox, but it could also be because Dorian uses hedonism and collecting beautiful things as a means of escapism: "For these treasures, and everything that he collected in his lovely house, were to be to him a means of forgetfulness, modes by which he could escape, for a season, from the fear that seemed to him at times to be almost too great to bear." — Chapter 11 Congratulations, Dorian, you ruined it for yourself. I like beautiful things. I have more resin statues than I have space for. I have more perfumes than I actually wear. I spend a lot of my free time scrolling through artwork on Pinterest. I genuinely like museums and ballets and operas. I like dressing up in fancy Goth outfits even without an occasion. I like soft blankets. I like neoclassical music. I like decorating for holidays and making elaborate table displays and giving everything a distinctive theme. I deeply appreciate beauty. I don’t think it poisons me. I collect all these things because they make me happy, and that’s all. I think that pleasure is a worthy goal for its own sake. But it has to be for its own sake, not for the sake of avoiding your problems, or the feeling of your sins crawling on your back. It’s like the difference between having a few drinks at a party for the fun of it, and becoming an alcoholic because you can’t come to terms with your psychological issues. Collect beautiful things because they make you happy, not because you hope they might fill the gaping void in your soul left behind by a portrait. Dorian definitely isn’t happy: “I have never searched for happiness. Who wants happiness? I have searched for pleasure.” —Chapter 18 Dorian’s whole life has been what I call “empty pleasure,” pleasure that is ultimately unfulfilling because it’s covering up a problem instead of being enjoyed for its own sake. If you indulge for the sake of avoiding something, you’re not enjoying the thing for what it is, you’re just desperately trying to take your mind off the thing you want to avoid nagging at the back of your brain, and the result is that you can’t really enjoy anything. Another example is gorging yourself on a delicious feast because it’s delicious, as opposed to binge eating. Or having sex with several people that you feel genuine affection for, as opposed to people you can’t even remember the names of. “Empty pleasure” is bad for the soul, but pleasure itself is not. The threat of “empty pleasure” is what has caused pleasure itself to be demonized for so long. It’s not the pleasure that’s bad, it’s the avoidance. Pleasure can’t be spiritual at all if its so superficial. Dorian’s hedonism is hollow and meaningless, and it corrupts his soul. Confront your damn problems, don’t lock them in your attic! Once you’ve done that, you can really get the most out of life. Thank you for allowing me all of that gratuitous philosophizing. Where was I? Oh, right — this book is a warning about art. Right. Lord Henry’s last real contribution to Dorian’s corruption is giving him the mysterious “yellow book.” This book is… well… honestly I’m not really sure what it’s about even though parts of it are described. The “yellow book” is often speculated to be À rebours by Joris-Karl Huysmans. I don’t really know anything about the book, but what matters is the effect that it has on Dorian in-universe. It cements his hedonistic philosophy that had already been implanted by Lord Henry, and it seems to really drive him over the edge. "Dorian Gray had been poisoned by a book. There were moments when he looked on evil simply as a mode through which he could realize his conception of beauty." — Chapter 11 So, there is no good and evil, only beauty. Dorian doesn’t really have a concept of good and evil anymore, just experiences in life, just whether things are beautiful or not. This is another pretty big problem with Dorian’s approach towards hedonism — he has no moral compass. This idea that the book is “poisonous” seems to directly contradict the point that Wilde makes in the preface. “There is no such thing as a moral or immoral book. Books are well written, or badly written. That is all.” Why the contradiction? Dorian has made the mistake of taking art too seriously. The yellow book is “poisonous” not because of anything about the book itself, but because of how Dorian responds to it, because he takes it too seriously. The book wouldn’t be immoral if he just enjoyed it at face-value and didn’t take it to heart, would it? The fact that he becomes so obsessed with it is another nail in his coffin. The first nail in the coffin comes much earlier. The scene where Dorian dumps Sibyl is critical. First, there’s Sibyl’s explanation of her perspective on her art: "The painted scenes were my world. I knew nothing but shadows, and I thought them real. You came — oh, by beautiful love! — and you freed my soul from prison. You taught me what reality really is. The stillness of the empty pageant in which I had always played. […] You had brought me something higher, something of which all art is but a reflection. You had made me understand what love really is. My love! My love! Prince Charming! Prince of life! I have grown sick of shadows. You are more to me than all art can ever be." — Chapter 7 Up until she met Dorian, Sibyl had been living through her plays. She quite literally “became” Juliet or Ophelia or whoever she was playing inside her mind, completely suspending her disbelief, because she just didn’t have much of a life outside of her acting. This made her a phenomenal actress, because watching an actor who’s that immersed in their role is also immersive for the audience. But when she met Dorian, life suddenly became more real to her and more meaningful to her than art. Sibyl completely lost that suspension of disbelief, and her acting skills along with it. Dorian dumps her for saying so: "…you have killed my love. You used to stir my imagination, Now you don’t even stir my curiosity. You simply produce no effect. I loved you because you were marvellous, because you had genius and intellect, because you realized the dreams of great poets and gave shape and substance to the shadows of art. You have thrown it all away. You are shallow and stupid. My God! how mad I was to love you! What a fool I have been! You mean nothing to me now. I will never see you again. I will never think of you. […] Without your art, you are nothing. […] A third-rate actress with a pretty face." Okay, there’s a lot to unpack here. Both Sibyl and Dorian have made the fatal mistake of taking art too seriously. On Sybil’s end, she’s been living through her art in a way that’s unhealthy. She doesn’t have a life or an identity beyond the persona that she adopts on stage. It’s like if your entire life was online, and the only people you’ve ever been in love with are fictional characters, and you didn’t have any life to speak of beyond that — oh. Okay, well, at least I have a sense of myself. Sibyl doesn’t have an identity of her own, so she borrows her identity from Shakespeare characters. Dorian, meanwhile, has fallen in love with this false identity. He doesn’t actually care about the person Sibyl actually is, because there’s nothing really there. When Sibyl feels like she’s finally found herself and become a person, Dorian is disgusted with her because she can no longer act, and she’s no longer interesting to him. Sibyl became an art piece and Dorian loved that art piece, not the person beneath. This scene is so often misrepresented in adaptations. In most adaptations, the breakup is Harry’s fault, usually through giving him bad romance advice and teaching him to devalue women. For example, in the 2009 adaptation, Harry tempts Dorian to go to a brothel instead of seeing Sibyl perform, and Sibyl is concerned that she’s just another whore to Dorian. That becomes the focus of their breakup. Blaming the breakup on Harry makes it about hedonism; Sibyl feeling like Dorian is exploiting her for sex makes it about hedonism. It’s not about hedonism, it’s about art, which of course relates back to the preface. In the book, the breakup is entirely Dorian’s fault. It’s also the first time we see any real cruelty out of Dorian, which is then reflected by the portrait. Because this has nothing to do with Harry’s influence, I consider it proof that Dorian was never really that good of a person to begin with. He completely lacks empathy for Sibyl. This is what results in tragedy. Sibyl commits suicide because she’s the pretty and innocent blond ingenue who’s always the first to die in a gothic novel, and Dorian officially begins his downward slide. Sibyl’s death is absolutely Dorian’s fault in every way. He doesn’t dive headfirst into hedonism until after that happens, and his hedonism is “empty” because he’s trying to numb the pain of Sibyl’s death. And it’s all downhill from there. When Basil finally comes to see Dorian again, he’s appalled by Dorian’s reputation. Apparently, everything Dorian touches rots from the inside, so to speak. Sibyl becomes the first of many. Every person he’s involved with ends up too ashamed to show themselves in public, if they don’t commit suicide. “…you were a man whom no pure-minded girl should be allowed to know, and whom no chaste woman should sit in the same room with. […] Why is your friendship so fatal to young men?” [Basil proceeds to describe several men whom Dorian was “inseparable” with who then ended up with disgraced reputations.] They say that you corrupt everyone with whom you become intimate” —Chapter 12 Dorian’s reputation is so sordid that all of the young women and men who become “intimate” with Dorian (interesting word choice) all end up ruined in some way or another. The same is said of Alan Campbell, the young chemist Dorian blackmails into deposing of Basil’s body. Apparently, they were “almost inseparable, indeed. Then the intimacy had come suddenly to an end.” Do I really need to spell this out? What does Dorian blackmail Allan with? We don’t know. It’s never said. But it’s heavily implied to be something about the very gay stuff that they almost definitely did together. But — and this is what made the book so scandalous for its time — Dorian isn’t depraved because he’s bi. He’s just a bad person, unambiguously, and all of the poor young people who become involved with him suffer for it. He civilly discusses with Alan that he needs a body disposed of, Alan refuses, then Dorian casually admits to murder, and when Alan still refuses, he blackmails him with a “look of pity,” almost like he’s saying “this hurts me way more than it hurts you.” And then poor Allan can’t live with himself and commits suicide. Dorian is a genuinely evil person. After he kills Basil, he’s well and truly gone off the rails. He has a freaking horcrux, and he goes mad from the ever-mounting terror that someone might discover his secret. So, that brings me to Basil Hallward. Poor, poor Basil. Basil knows his fatal flaw, and here we come back to taking art too seriously: "Dorian, from the moment I met you, your personality had the most extraordinary influence over me. I was dominated, soul, brain, and power, by you. You became to me the visible incarnation of that unseen ideal whose memory haunts us like an exquisite dream. I worshipped you. […] I was only happy when I was with you. When you were away from me, you were still present in my art…. […] One day, a fatal day I sometimes think, I determined to paint a wonderful portrait of you as you actually are, not in the costume of dead ages, but in your own dress and your own time. […] …I know that as I worked on it, every flake and film of colour seemed to me to reveal my secret. I grew afraid that others would know of my idolatry. I felt, Dorian, that I had told too much, that I had put too much of myself into it. […] Well, after a few days the thing left my studio, and as soon as I had gotten rid of the intolerable fascination of its presence, it seemed to me that I had been foolish in imagining that I had seen anything in it, more than that you were extremely good-looking and that I could paint. Even now I cannot help feeling that it is a mistake to think that the passion one feels in creation is ever really shown in the work that one creates. Art is always more abstract than we fancy. Form and colour tell us of form and colour — that is all. It often seems to me that art conceals the artist far more than it reveals him." —Chapter 9 This is all one paragraph, by the way, and the whole thing spans an entire page. It is probably the gayest paragraph of the entire body of Victorian literature. Basil is clearly infatuated. He becomes so obsessed with Dorian that it’s almost unhealthy. This anguished declaration of love obviously echoes the preface, which is to be expected if Wilde sees Basil as a representation of himself. “To reveal art and conceal the artist is art’s aim.” Basil is afraid that the portrait doesn’t reveal Dorian as he is, instead revealing Basil’s salacious crush on Dorian. But he ultimately comes to the same conclusion as the preface — that art conceals the artist and simply exists for its own sake. Anyone is able to project onto art and see anything they want in it, but art simply is what it is, and taking it too seriously results in peril. Perhaps the true tragic figure of this book isn’t Dorian, it’s Basil, for having invested so much in this portrait. He doesn’t paint it for the sake of creating a beautiful thing, but for the sake of glorifying his crush. He treated Dorian like a god, and could not see past his projection of perfection to see that Dorian was becoming a monster until it was much too late. When Basil sees what has become of the portrait, he acknowledges that this is the only thing anyone is punished for in this novel: “I worshipped you too much. I am punished for it. You worshipped yourself too much. We are both punished” (Chapter 13). Dorian himself kind of becomes an art piece. He literally switches places with the portrait. The portrait shows the corruption of Dorian’s soul, and Dorian himself becomes a projection of both Harry “poisonous” philosophy and Basil’s unhealthy projection. He is admired intensely. He exists just to be beautiful, like an art piece, and no one can really see past his beauty. The novel’s premise is based around the idea that people’s sins are written across their face, and that beauty = goodness. No one can believe anything bad about Dorian when they see him because he just looks so innocent and angelic. Before he learns the truth, Basil is disturbed by Dorian’s reputation but just can’t believe it: “But you, Dorian, with your pure, bright, innocent face, and your marvellous untroubled youth—I can’t believe anything against you” (Chapter 12). Similar comments are made by other characters. Dorian is just too pretty to be as evil as he is. The subversiveness of the book comes from that premise. How often are beautiful people able to get away with anything in society, just because people tend to assume they’re innocent? So obviously, Dorian is completely narcissistic. Even Harry is incredulous when Dorian all but admits to having murdered Basil, thinking that he’s not capable of murder: “Crime belongs exclusively to the lower orders […] I should fancy that crime was to them what art is to us, simply a method of procuring extraordinary sensations.” Comparing crime to art is really interesting, to say the least. Most people would say that there’s nothing artistic about crime, but Harry isn’t most people, he’s a troll. And the only reason he gets off scot-free in this book is because he never commits the sin of taking art too seriously! Apparently, according to him, Dorian cannot commit a crime because he’s basically an art piece, and he just doesn’t have any need to kill someone. There’s another comment that Harry makes towards the end that suggests that he views Dorian as an art piece: “I am so glad that you have never done anything, never carved a statue, or painted a picture, or produced anything outisde of yourself! Life has been your art. You have set yourself to music. Your days are your sonnets.” —Chapter 19 This echoes an earlier comment that he made about Basil being boring because everything that’s interesting about him, he puts into his art. Dorian’s life is vibrant because he directs all that same creative energy into living instead of into an art piece. Dorian himself is an art piece. And yet, while Harry is saying this, Dorian is feeling Basil’s murder weighing upon him. The title refers not to Dorian himself, but to the portrait — a piece of art. The portrait drives the story, and even Dorian himself realizes this. Dorian’s undoing is that he can’t live with the guilt of his reckless murder and probably all his other sins, especially when he has a literal conscience staring back at him. He literally would have gotten away with murder just for being pretty, if he didn’t have a conscience. It’s far too late for him to redeem himself, so he decides to destroy the conscience. And… we know how that turns out. TL;DR: The true “moral” of this book is really hard to parse out, which is maybe why we shouldn’t attempt to read the symbol and just take the whole book at face-value, right? There’s a lot going on here. There’s the inability to face up to one’s problems and deal with them in a way that’s healthy, resulting in any form of enjoyment being “empty.” There’s the idolization of beauty, always assuming the best of beautiful people even when they’re really quite awful. And there’s art — treating art like life or life like art is always going to come back to bite you in the end. That would make this a cautionary tale about what happens when art isn’t appreciated for its own sake, and is projected on so much that one confuses it with life, or sought as a source of morality. Art is not moral, it just is — reading (or writing!) a book from the perspective of a serial killer will not make you a bad person. This book is not a bad influence, it just is. Even after having written all of that, I’m still not really sure what Wilde was trying to say about hedonism, so let’s ask him. According to Wilde himself, the moral of The Picture of Dorian Gray is, “All excess, as well as all renunciation, brings its own punishment.”

Lovecraft

I’ve been writing this post for a year and a half, reading through as much Lovecraft as I could before forming an opinion. I’m glad I did, because I’ve gotten to know Lovecraft’s work over the course of writing this post, and my opinions of his work have changed in that time. My initial perception of Lovecraft was pretty mixed. His work could be gloriously descriptive, but it was mostly incredibly dry and hard to read. For every beautiful description of some otherworldly place, there’s an infodump. In some respects the dry narration helps the stories emulate medical logs or travel journals, but it’s not very engaging to read. Lovecraft’s most famous works are, in my opinion, the boring ones. Lovecraft’s horrid racism also has no place in modern fiction, and some of his work completely loses its intended effect because of modern scientific developments and better understanding of the world. Lovecraft consistently paints then-new scientific developments as terrifying, or implying things that are terrifying — Pluto is canonically the alien planet of Yuggoth in his universe, “The Color out of Space” is based on the invisible light spectrum being scary, and “Cool Air” is a horror story about air conditioning. Can you imagine how Lovecraft would have reacted to the moon landing, had he lived to see it? He would have flipped his lid! His paranoia of damn near everything infuses many of the horror stories that he’s known for — the ocean, outer space, brown people… And yet, in other ways, Lovecraft is an excellent writer. What gives Lovecraft his staying power is the essence behind his ideas. Of course, he’s famous for the Cthulhu Mythos, and the fact that the fear of the unknown will always be part of the human condition. Lovecraft brings us face-to-face with the absurd, the gaping and unfeeling emptiness of the universe that doesn’t care about us. His stories are centered around the existential dread of knowing that the universe is bigger than we can ever conceive, that one day the sun will burn out, that we are a tiny speck in the vastness. Much of Lovecraft’s work is about learning the Awful Truth and having your life never be the same again, madness subsuming your soul. But Lovecraft doesn’t just write about fear — he also writes about wonder, wonder so magnificent that it also tears at the soul. There turned out to be a lot more to Lovecraft than I was expecting. If I knew that Lovecraft didn’t just write about weird aliens, but that he had a whole high fantasy world, I would have started reading him a lot sooner. I haven’t read all of Lovecraft’s work, but I’ve read a pretty good selection by now. Here are my thoughts on everything that I have read: “The Call of Cthulhu” had good parts, but it was a lot of dry and slow buildup, and I don’t like it nearly as much as some of his other stories. “The Dunwich Horror” was also mostly too slow for my taste, and it was difficult to understand what was going on. (I read it mostly for the first mention of the Necronomicon.) “Cool Air” has some good unsettling moments, but little about it holds up, from the cringey phonetic Spanish accents to the fact that it’s about air conditioning. I did like things about “The Whisperer in Darkness,” but it had the same sort of slow, dry, and wordy buildup. There’s some great Mythos lore in that story, but to get there you have to wade through really tedious narration. About halfway through, after all the correspondence, the descriptions start getting really good. I didn’t get far in “Mountains of Madness” before giving up, and I didn’t even bother with “Innsmouth.” After having read most of the famous stories, I was expecting that most of Lovecraft’s work would be equally dull. But I’m pleased to say that I was wrong. If I were going to introduce someone to Lovecraft’s work, I’d pick “The Haunter of the Dark” over “The Call of Cthulhu.” I thought it was a much more engaging story overall, and it establishes all of the best Lovecraft tropes — creepy old church, secret evil cult, eldritch monster, tomes of eldritch lore like the Necronomicon, ciphers, hidden knowledge from the depths of the universe. “The Festival” is similar — it’s full of way too many words for “old” (ancient, archaic, immemorial, elder, primal, antique, antediluvian…), but despite that, the descriptions in it are vivid and wonderful. This is peak Lovecraft: creepy dark rituals in a sinister seaside town, featuring the Necronomicon, unsettling atmosphere, a twisted interpretation of Christmas, beasts that might be Night-Gaunts…. Lovecraft uses a lot of the same words for “old” to describe Kingsport in “The Strange High House in the Mist.” I really liked that story, because it reads like a folktale, and I love the concept of the mist bringing dreams and stories and lore up from the sea. I thought “The Temple” was fascinating, since it’s the only explicit Atlantis reference among Lovecraft’s many sunken cities, and it also contains an obscure member of his pantheon that is basically Dionysus. Speaking of, the protagonist of “The Quest of Iranon” looks remarkably similar to Dionysus (but unlike Dionysus, he ironically does not turn out to be an eldritch god). His story began wonderfully, very like The Bacchae, but rather than having a gruesome-but-satisfying ending, it had a dismal ending. “The Alchemist” is probably one of my favorite Lovecraft stories, since it’s the most distinctly gothic of Lovecraft’s prose, with castles and family curses and dark magic. It has a twist that’s more hilarious than terrifying. I also really liked “The Nameless City” (horror + Indiana Jones-style archeology is totally my thing). “The Cats of Ulthar” was automatically great because CATS! Always respect cats. “The Dreams in the Witch House” was actually going to be the first story I read, but it took me two years to actually get to it because of its slow, wordy beginning. But I ended up really liking it. It’s suitably horrifying, and it utilizes a lot of New England witch lore (though apparently witches worship Nyarlathotep instead of The Devil — or more likely, Nyarlathotep is the Devil). There’s also some Dreamland tie-ins, Elder Things, and plenty of weird geometry. When Lovecraft is able to move away from the dry buildup and get to the good part, his descriptions become suddenly vibrant. The descriptions in “Nyarlathotep” are excellent. I loved “The Crawling Chaos” — beautiful language, opium trip, a mystical experience. I wouldn’t be surprised if this story alone inspired Fallen London. “What the Moon Brings” is very similar — the narrator has what seems like a hallucination that makes a garden seem horrifying under moonlight, and ends up seeing the sea recede to reveal a sunken necropolis and a hideous monster. Because Lovecraft. Honestly, that story seemed like an embodiment of XVIII The Moon in the tarot, in its aspect of bringing nightmares and madness as well as secret knowledge. I don’t really get “Azathoth,” since Azathoth itself is barely mentioned in it, but the descriptions were beautiful, like “wild streams of violet midnight glittering with dust of gold.” Although the protagonist leaves his body behind for good, there’s nothing really horrific about that story. In fact, I find it relatable, and the goal of occultism is to embrace the secrets and the dreams that men have lost. “The Night Ocean” has some stunning images. My favorite line is, “…to bring some faded trophy from that intangible realm of shadow and gossamer, requires equal skill and memory. For although dreams are in all of us, few hands may grasp their moth-wings without tearing them.” The sun is described as, “some incredible plaything forgotten on the celestial lawn” and “a crouching god with naked celestial flesh.” One of many incredible descriptions of the sea is, “the robe of the dark sea that lay crumpled like an enormous garment so close to me.” Lovecraft was clearly afraid of the ocean, but “The Night Ocean” is almost a love letter to the sea and its sublimity (that is, until it inevitably descends into nihilism, depression, and terror). These stories don’t really have plots, they’re more of a wave of beautiful descriptions and mystical experience. Some of Lovecraft’s other stories are based around his fear of new science, like “Cool Air” being about how scary air conditioning is. The most notable of these stories is “The Color out of Space,” which is… interesting. Lovecraft must have known something about science to describe all the chemical tests done on the meteorite in such explicit detail, but the story itself is still based around fear of the invisible light spectrum. It’s undercut by the knowledge that we literally cannot see colors other than the ones we already see, not because of where the colors come from, but because of the way the eye itself is structured. That said, “The Color out of Space” has some gorgeous descriptions, especially of landscapes. I particularly like this line: “And the secrets of the strange days will be one with the deep’s secrets; one with the hidden lore of the old ocean, and all the mystery of primal earth.” But aside from that, it’s still written as a rather dry account of events. It’s also bleak even by Lovecraft’s standards. One thing I will say is that, colors and madness and aliens aside, Lovecraft did seem to have predicted DDT poisoning and other kinds of pollution. The observation that we cannot sense all of reality, such as ultraviolet light, becomes a source of cosmic horror. I wouldn’t be surprised if “From Beyond” was the inspiration for Stanford Pines’ backstory in Gravity Falls, and I know for a fact that it’s the inspiration for the Nox Arcana album Blackthorn Asylum. This story mentions the horror of “utter, absolute solitude in infinite, sightless, soundless space,” decades before space travel. The description of a “patch of strange night sky filled with shining, revolving spheres” reminded me of the Hubble Deep Field photo. In a similar vein, Pluto is canonically Yuggoth in Lovecraft’s universe. These are cool details, but they’re somewhat undercut by the inevitable march of modern science. The horror of the then-recently-discovered Pluto actually being Yuggoth is lessened by the modern knowledge that Pluto is one of many similar dwarf planets. The bad science is one of the things that contributes to Lovecraft’s work having aged poorly. But there’s actually one area in which Lovecraft feels a bit ahead of his time, and that’s when describing the sort of knowledge that doesn’t come from science. Significant dreams are, I think, one of my favorite Lovecraftian tropes. I think that Lovecraft’s descriptions of dreams and mystical experiences are generally fascinating, although they are all tinged with horror. I want to have dreams like the ones Lovecraft describes. Assuming that the descriptions in these stories are inspired by visions Lovecraft himself had (which they very well may be), they validate some descriptions of similar mystical experiences that I have had and heard from people online, in books, and also in real life. “Beyond the Wall of Sleep” is one of these stories. Before you get to the good part, a lot of this story is spent hating on hillbillies, characterizing them as barbaric degenerates, and I don’t know if that’s the character’s voice talking or Lovecraft’s actual opinion. (Funny, I don’t ascribe the literal Nazi ideology of the protagonist in “The Temple” to Lovecraft, but I’ve been reading all other prejudice or bias as potentially Lovecraft’s own.) “Beyond the Wall of Sleep” would be one of my favorites if it weren’t for this uncomfortable classism. But then — then! The protagonist follows the hillbilly into a dream and has a stunning mystical experience, perceiving them both as beings of light in a heavenly Astral realm. The description of the effervescent, flickering “palace” in that is occasionally “supplanted” by bright landscapes sounds a lot like descriptions of heaven that I have heard from real people — they are indescribably beautiful, but defy logic. (That seems to be the nature of the Astral plane, and it would drive one mad if one tried too hard to make sense of it.) In this Astral dream-world that Lovecraft describes, human souls appear as light-beings that communicate with each other “soul to soul, with silent and perfect interchange of thought.” The body is only a temporary, confining vessel for this light-being. My own mystical experiences, and those of others I know, confirm that the human body is a temporary state — we are actually grand beings, shoved down into small human bodies. The description of spirit “speech” also matches my own experience of speaking with higher beings, like angels. In particular, this line: "Each transmitted idea formed rapidly in my mind, and though no actual language was employed, my habitual association of conception and expression was so great that I seemed to be receiving the message in ordinary English." —”Beyond the Wall of Sleep” This is exactly my experience when talking to gods using automatic writing. That’s very validating. Knowledge of such things has produced no madness in me yet, so I doubt it will. On that note, actually reading Lovecraft has revealed to me that there are two types of insanity present in his stories. The first type is the one that Cosmic Horror is known for — insanity brought on by existential despair. There are grand and eldritch things beyond space, that can destroy you without a second thought, and there’s nothing you can do about it! If Azathoth wakes up, reality will blip out of existence! Ahhhh! The second type of insanity is similar, but in my opinion, distinct — insanity brought on by receiving information that your brain cannot process. I’ve used the metaphor of trying to run newer software on an old computer; the computer literally lacks the hardware to process the newer software, so it either won’t run, or the computer will break. If you receive information that the mind lacks the “hardware” to process, because it comes from beings far beyond humanity, then your mind might break under the strain of trying to process it. But it is possible to learn to correctly perceive and absorb this kind of information, to figuratively “update” your mind’s “operating system.” (Grant us eyes! Grant us eyes!) If you can absorb it, then receiving eldritch knowledge becomes a mystical experience. Lovecraft may or may not have distinguished between these two types of insanity, but I do. Mystical experiences do not result in despair; they are positive and productive. There’s far more of this in Lovecraft’s work than I expected, but it tends to be his less-popular stories that explore it. And on that note, my general opinion of Lovecraft changed entirely once I discovered his Dream Cycle. The Dream-Quest of Unknown Kadath literally felt like a fever dream put to paper. It follows Randolph Carter on his quest through the dreamlands to find a forbidden city of the gods. Gorgeous, though very purple, descriptions; honestly, the purple prose helped to enhance the dreamlike quality. I particularly love this line from the beginning: “…unknown Kadath, veiled in cloud and crowned with unimagined stars, holds secret and nocturnal the onyx castle of the Great Ones.” This story seems very realistic in its portrayal of astral projection and lucid dreaming, while also being your typical high fantasy quest. It’s no wonder Lovecraft has inspired mystics and occultists. Though he often takes his description of mystical experiences in horrifying directions, he doesn’t always. Lovecraft is actually a rather fantastic worldbuilder! This story is absolutely loaded with Cthulhu Mythos lore, which is fun! I love portal fantasy, and Dream-Quest is portal fantasy par excellence. It really emphasizes to me just how much of Fallen London was inspired by Lovecraft. I’m thrilled that Lovecraft’s work is in the public domain, because this is a gold mine. (I guess I don’t really have to wonder how Lovecraft would have reacted to the moon landing, when he wrote about weird Nyarlathotep-rituals conducted by gray abominations on the dark side of the moon.) I also love to pieces that Carter is rescued by an army of cats. That is the absolute best thing. Who knew that kitties would save the day in cosmic horror? (Say what you will about Lovecraft, at least he loved cats!) I particularly loved the twist at the end, that (SPOILER) Carter’s sunset city is Boston, built out of every beautiful thing that he has seen in his childhood. It has something of a happy ending, for a Lovecraft story, and its message about the importance of childlike wonder — which can defy even Lovecraft’s most ancient and powerful eldritch gods — is something that touches me deeply. Also, Night-Gaunts are officially my favorite Lovecraftian creatures. I love that these scary-as-hell bat things that even other horrors fear are the good guys! (The only thing that confuses me is, why is Nodens the lord of Night-Gaunts when he is the primordial god of the sea, and the Night-Gaunts are afraid of water?) After Dream-Quest, I dove into the Dream Cycle. Lovecraft was a writer of fantasy! In “The Silver Key,” which precedes Dream-Quest, Lovecraft practically lectures the audience on the importance of dreams, fancies, old gods, and childlike wonder. He argues that they are what gives meaning to a completely meaningless and absurd universe, and that they provide for humanity what science and rationality cannot by themselves. I share in Lovecraft’s pain, since I’ve made similar arguments against some of Quora’s atheists, the sort that value reality at the expense of myth. “Silver Key” was so relatable to me, because I was that kid who desperately wanted to find a magical key to a fantasy world and open a secret door out in the woods somewhere! I thought I had to stumble into a fantasy world by the time I reached adulthood, because then it would be too late. Of course, I am that adult now, and I think I’m a better dreamer now than I was as a child. There are also some excellent quotes in “Celephaïs” about the drive of the adults who still dream to experience fantasy, and I found myself relating to Lovecraft’s dreamer protagonists, Carter and Kuranes. “Celephaïs” sort of ends happily, for a Lovecraft story. Like Dream-Quest, it has some interesting commentary on the nature of beauty and wonder. “Through the Gates of the Silver Key” continues Carter’s story, and while I didn’t like all of it, it included an absolutely phenomenal mystical experience. Carter learns that he is but one piece of a much greater entity that exists simultaneously in nearly infinite places and times, and that this entity is both himself and beyond the concept of “self.” He comprehends how limited human perception is, that this life is illusionary in comparison to this broader reality, and that many contradictory things can be true at once. This being Lovecraft, it’s presented as a horrifying revelation, and I understand how these concepts might be horrifying to someone who wasn’t already familiar with it. To me, they suggest that Lovecraft must have had real mystical experiences, because this is in line with much of what I have learned as an occultist. I also really like Lovecraft’s descriptions of the incomprehensible, like “a flux of impressions not so much visual as cerebral,” “imitations of body,” and “a suggestion of chanting—or what human imagination might interpret as chanting.” “The Unnamable” was interesting. In other stories, the narrator is confirmed to be Randolph Carter. This is the only Carter story that is narrated in first person. Carter is Lovecraft’s self-insert, which is particularly obvious in this story: “I was too fond of ending my stories with sights or sounds which paralysed my heroes’ faculties and left them without courage, words, or associations to tell what they had experienced.” It’s Lovecraft commenting on cosmic horror, and why the ineffable is so terrifying or life-changing. I think its commentary on art is similar to Oscar Wilde’s preface to Dorian Gray. A fellow artist (an “orthodox sun-dweller”) argues with Carter that objectivity is more significant and “literary” in art than evoking emotion. Carter defends the literary merit of the mystical and fantastical. He argues that not all experiences are rational, that logic and the direct experiences of the senses cannot lead one to understand everything that life throws at you. Of course, Carter is proven right when he and his companion are attacked by an eldritch monster at the end, because it’s Lovecraft, but I appreciate Lovecraft’s self-awareness here. I also appreciate any defense of fantasy. I think that Lovecraft’s dreamland stories are extremely underrated. They’re better-written than some of his more famous horror, in my opinion. They’re more engaging and have a greater quantity of vivid imagery. I find them more interesting than the “scary monster in remote place is scary” stories that are better-known. And they also tone down the racism considerably. (It’s not absent, but it’s far less overt.) The mystical revelations also make them feel a little bit ahead of their time, while most of Lovecraft’s work is very much a product of its time. Finally, I like his poetry. The poems of Fungi from Yuggoth are great! They’re actually all one poem, separated into little ones that act almost like chapters, and they tell a complete story — a dreamland story. I think “Expectancy” is my favorite of the Yuggoth poems. It feels a little as if Carter wrote these poems over the course of Dream-Quest. As for the rest, “Nathicana” is basically just “Annabel Lee”-but-Lovecraft. I LOVED “Psychopompos: A Tale in Rhyme.” I think it’s one of my new favorite poems! It’s much more gothic than most of Lovecraft’s other work — it’s about a witch and a werewolf, not any of Lovecraft’s usual tentacled weirdness! I’m not sure why it’s called “Psychopompos,” or the significance of the first set of lines describing a psychopomp. But it has the usual gorgeous imagery, and a really catchy rhyme scheme. If you read me the poem and asked me to guess which famous horror writer wrote it, I would not guess Lovecraft. “Nemesis,” on the other hand, is utterly Lovecraftian. In fact, I’d say it’s an eleven-stanza summation of just about everything Lovecraft writes about — madness, the primordial cosmos, the sea and its abyssal creatures, dusty tombs, ancient cities, etc. and I’m pretty sure the narrator is Nyarlathotep. It’s like a Lovecraftian “Song of Amergin.” It’s Lovecraft in a nutshell. On the whole, it is my opinion that Lovecraft’s horror stories have not aged as well as Edgar Allan Poe’s have. Poe’s work feels timeless, while Lovecraft’s consistently shows its datedness. Despite that, the tropes, ideas, and lore that Lovecraft codified or created have staying power. This is especially true of the dreamland stories, with their fantastic worldbuilding and very authentic portrayals of mystical experiences and ideas. It’s no wonder that Lovecraft is the inspiration for the lore of so many games I like — the forgotten gods of dead civilizations in Hollow Knight and Salt and Sanctuary, Hermaeus Mora and his Apocrypha in The Elder Scrolls, and basically everything in Fallen London and Bloodborne. I am grateful for Lovecraft’s work because of those things alone! Lovecraft’s cosmic horror has done a lot for the landscape of fiction. But he also provided a framework for comprehending the incomprehensible. Although Lovecraft is known for his eldritch monsters and descents into madness, I love the stories of his that are more mystical than horrifying. They still deal with looking beyond the thin curtain of reality to see visions that might cause insanity in the average person, but they’re less about paranoia and more about sublime, awesome comprehension of the ineffable. It’s like that scene in Doctor Strange when The Ancient One first taps Strange’s forehead and sends him spinning through otherworlds. It can indeed be terrifying, but it’s also wonderful. Yeah, it’s insane, but if you learn to work with the insanity, you become Sorcerer Supreme. I think this is what I love most about Lovecraft’s work, and also what I most relate to.

How Vampire Romances Work

Vampire romances are not inherently bad. It's all in the execution. That’s a problem that a lot of YA has, as a matter of fact. YA tends to have very good premises that are spoiled by bad execution. I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve picked up a YA book that sounded like it would be a really good story, and found that the premise wasn’t explored to its full potential. To put it another way: For every Hunger Games, there’s a hundred copycats that don’t understand that what made The Hunger Games a good story was the biting social commentary about propaganda, not the fact that it was about a teenager overthrowing a corrupt government. If the key element of a dystopia is its social commentary, then the key element of a vampire romance is its exploration of sexuality and the taboos associated with it. Vampires are a really obvious sexual metaphor — sensual piercing of skin with fangs, warm gush of blood, etc. It’s therefore my opinion that any attempt to “de-fang” vampires, making them less dangerous, also makes them less sexy. Vampires in a romance story need that edge of dark sensuality and danger. It’s the vampire’s desire to sink his sharp teeth into the female protagonist’s* tender flesh that makes him enticing and compelling. If the writing dances around or undercuts that aspect, it does a disservice to the entire story. Why is this monster so attractive? Well, I have my theories. One of them is that he represents women’s perception of male sexuality as half-seductive-half-scary. I developed this theory after reading The Uses of Enchantment by Bruno Bettelheim. In it, he describes the “Animal-Groom Cycle” of fairy tales, in which a female protagonist’s male love interest initially appears as an animal or a monster. The earliest example of this is “Cupid and Psyche,” but “Beauty and the Beast” and “The Frog Prince” are even more famous examples. In these kinds of stories, the bestial male character represents the “primitive, ag­gressive, and selfishly destructive” aspects of male sexuality, which are then transformed into something beautiful by the female character’s love and acceptance of him. Bettelheim argues that women are conditioned, mainly by other women, to see sex as something that is disgusting or terrifying. The man appears as an animal or a monster because male sexuality is raw, predatory, and difficult to control. If the woman is not careful, she can easily become a victim of his lust, or worse. But in some stories (especially the Psyche-derived ones), the animal groom becomes a beautiful man at night when he’s in bed with his wife. According to Bettelheim, this is because sex is something beautiful when you’re in the middle of it, but not necessarily after: "Many females who consciously or subconsciously experience sex as something “ani­mal-like,” and resent the male for depriving them of their virginity, feel quite differently while enjoying themselves with the man they love during the night. But once the man has left them, in bright daylight the old anxieties and resentments […] reassert themselves. What seemed lovely at night looks different by day, particularly when the world with its critical attitude toward sexual enjoyment […] reasserts itself." — Bruno Bettelheim, The Uses of Enchantment This is why vampires are nocturnal. Sex usually happens at night, because darkness acts as a cover for all secret and taboo things. Being a night creature ties the vampire lover (or demon lord, fairy king, fill in the blank) to all of the passions and fears that surround the experience of sex and sexuality. He is seductive because he is mysterious and decadent; he tempts the heroine with the promise of pleasure and freedom. He can read minds, so he can see all of her secret desires and fantasies, making her incapable of repressing them. If he can control her mind or hypnotize her, and she is compelled to submit to him, then that removes her having to take responsibility for her own desire. Taken literally, this is very creepy and invasive, but it is appealing to the woman who does not want to be socially shamed for actively expressing her sexuality. The vampire lover is enticing because he facilitates her exploration into the desires and emotions that she has repressed. Whether he is helping her to attain maturity, or insidiously corrupting her, depends on the biases of the particular work. Another appealing aspect of the vampire lover is that he’s a representative of a theoretical bygone time when men were more gentlemanly and romantic. Werewolves can have all the “animal groom” traits that I just explained, but vampires are cultured. Vampires are debonair, they’re stylish, they have a feminine sensuality that balances out their more bestial qualities. They don’t flip back and forth between monster and man like a werewolf does. They’re already monsters, while also being beautiful men. In an essay called “My Vampire Boyfriend: Postfeminism, “Perfect” Masculinity, and the Contemporary Appeal of Paranormal Romance,” Ananya Mukherjea writes: “They are immensely romantic, laying out decadent picnics they sometimes cannot eat and remembering even minor anniversaries. They are wealthy and influential alpha men, earning the respect of other men as well as the desire of other women, which, however, never interests them. And, they are also benevolently paternal […] though never lecherous.” This, Mukherjea argues, is a kind of idealized masculinity from the perspective of the female readers. This is how they wish their boyfriends acted. The vampire lover behaves the way women wish men would, being more attentive, genteel, and perceptive, without compromising his power or social dominance. His willingness to show vulnerability at the right moments makes him more relatable to women, and makes his passion for the heroine more intense. He walks a paradoxical dividing line that is impossible for real men to achieve: He is emotional enough to be intense, but not to the point where he seems immature or pathetic. He is undeniably attractive enough to have other women pining after him, but has eyes only for the heroine. He either is or acts like an aristocrat from an imagined, idealized version of the nineteenth century, but he never abuses his wealth and power, and lacks the sexist attitudes of men from bygone eras. He also checks himself. He never threatens the heroine, because he keeps himself in check. He asserts his dominance over other people, but never her. For some young women, his ability to control his own monstrous sexuality is precisely what is appealing about him. Mukherjea points out how the vampire boyfriend will actively police his own sexuality. She writes, “His beloved can benefit from the intensity of his desire for her but not suffer from his inability to control it or to express it elegantly.” The protagonist is often an innocent ingenue, and the vampire protects that “innocence” by restraining himself, instead of penetrating her and drawing blood (with teeth or otherwise). The vampire is usually reluctant to turn the female protagonist into a vampire, even when it would be more convenient for them both, because that would mean she loses her “innocence” and becomes a realized sexual being. The threat of the vampire’s fangs is always theoretically there, but sometimes the reader never feels it. This is, in my opinion, where many vampire romances go wrong. So. Let’s talk about Twilight. I’m using Twilight as my example because it kicked off the vampire romance craze, and because I have it handy. I read Twilight because I’m writing a similar story (which isn’t technically about vampires, but most of what I described above still applies), and I wanted to know how close my own work was to what already existed. I remember it being kind of fun, entertaining enough, a beach read. Despite its popularity, I think it’s not very well executed. Twilight has an excellent premise, one that would be hard to screw up, so where does it go wrong? My mother used to teach parenting classes, so there are a lot of books about parenting scattered throughout our house, and I read some of them out of curiosity. The one I found the most interesting was Cinderella Ate My Daughter by Peggy Orenstein, which is about how the media affects little girls. She had this to say about Twilight: "Bella’s overweening blandness — as much as the guilty-pleasure rescue fantasy, may explain the series appeal: Twilight’s heroine is so insipid, so ordinary, so clumsy, so Not Hot. Isn’t that great? Think about it: What a relief it must be for girls who feel constant pressure to be physically, socially, and academically perfect! Bella does not spend two hours with a flatiron, ace her calculus test, score the winning goal in her lacrosse match, then record a hit song. Bella does not spout acidly witty dialogue. Bella does not wear $200 jeans on her effortlessly slim hips. Even in the Hollywood incarnation, as played by Kristin Stewart, she is relatively plain, modestly attired, and excruciatingly awkward. Yet Edward, the most desirable dude in the room, loves her — now that is a fairy tale. The fact taht he refuses to consummate their relationship may make him all the more attractive to post-pubescent girls weary of the mandate to be sexy and please boys. […] Twilight may have given girls something they needed: a way to explore their nascent sexuality on their own terms, to feel desire rather than perform it. […] Twilight lets a girl feel heat without needing to look hot." — Peggy Orenstein, Cinderella Ate My Daughter This isn’t the only place where I’ve encountered this particular interpretation, and okay, I get it. Taking the pressure to be sexy off might be appealing for some, especially because it’s mostly tweens who read Twilight. But I stand by what I said above, that what makes the vampire romance work is the dangerously appealing sexuality of the male lead. And Twilight is palpably desexualized. It was written by a Mormon woman, and man does that show. I remember when I first read it, I kept waiting for the moment when I would really start rooting for Bella and Edward’s relationship. I wanted to fall in love with Edward. But I remember, even back when I was fifteen, I felt like their romance had no heat. It doesn’t let me feel heat without needing to look hot — it’s as cold as Edward’s dead flesh. I will now close-read Twilight, to demonstrate what I mean. Edward explains how he wanted so desperately to kill Bella in the first few weeks that he knew her, all the different ways he could have done it, and this is Bella’s reaction: “He closed his eyes, lost in his agonized confession. I listened, more eager than rational. Common sense told me I should be terrified. Instead, I was relieved to finally understand. And I was filled with compassion for his suffering, even now, as he confessed his craving to take my life.” — Stephanie Meyer, Twilight Bella should be terrified. Not for any mundane reason related to abuse or concerning behavior, but in the purely fantastical and gothic sense of being genuinely scared that the vampire will bite her, but also extremely turned on. That’s what would make this story compelling! That’s what would make Edward sexy! It’s all “telling, not showing” — we hear Edward exposit on his desire to kill Bella, but the reader never feels it because Bella herself doesn’t. Edward should have slipped up and nearly bit her. Bella should have felt a genuine flash of fear, and had to work through that. Instead, we hear a lot of Edward’s agonizing about how he’s just barely stopping himself from biting Bella, but it never happens, and the reader already knows that it’s never going to happen. It’s an empty threat, and therefore it doesn’t pack any punch… or any heat. I had very mixed feelings about the anime Vampire Knight — there were a lot of ways the writing could have improved — but one of the things I liked about it was that it wasn’t afraid to go there. When Zero starts turning into a vampire, he bites Yuki. He’s struggling to control his newfound bloodlust, so he actually slips up and bites his friend! The first time this happens, it’s really effective. Here’s the first kiss scene between Bella and Edward: “No,” he continued, “I was thinking there was something I wanted to try.” And he took my face in his hands again. I couldn’t breathe. He hesitated — not in the normal way, the human way. Not the way a man might hesitate before he kissed a woman, to gauge her reaction, to see how he would be received. Perhaps he would hesitate to prolong the moment, that ideal moment of anticipation, sometimes better than the kiss itself. Edward hesitated to test himself, to see if this was safe, to make sure he was still in control of his need. And then his cold, marble lips pressed very softly against mine. What neither of us was prepared for was my response. Blood boiled under my skin, burned in my lips. My breath came in a wild gasp. My fingers knotted in his hair, clutching him to me. My lips parted as I breathed in his heady scent. Immediately I felt him turn to unresponsive stone beneath my lips. his hands gently, but with irresistible force, pushed my face back. I opened my eyes and saw his guarded expression. “Oops,” I breathed. “That’s an understatement.” His eyes were wild, his jaw clenched in an acute restraint, yet he didn’t lapse from his perfect articulation. He held my face just inches from his. He dazzled my eyes. — Stephanie Meyer, Twilight Things start to get heated — boiling blood isn’t exactly the most romantic of images, but Bella holds him close and breaths in his scent, and then he freezes. He turns to “unresponsive stone.” It feels like a disappointment, like whiplash. I understand that’s probably supposed to be the point, but it kills what should be a triumphant romantic moment for this budding relationship. I’d already felt that Edward and Bella’s relationship was a bit bland up to this point. Their conversations sometimes contained some witty back-and-forth, but they’re not all that engaging. When we got here, to this kiss scene that dies in the water, I realized it was never going to get better. If I wasn’t hardcore shipping the romantic leads by their first kiss, then I was never going to. (The movies, unfortunately, fall prey to the same issue. I watched parts of Breaking Dawn recently, and the first kiss between Edward and Bella at the beginning of the movie was the same — cold, passionless, lacking chemistry. I don’t blame Pattinson and Stewart. I’ve seen them both in other things where they have more chemistry with their love interests. I think Twilight is just… dead.) Instead of turning to cold and emotionless stone, Edward should have bit her. Edward should have slipped up and bit her in that scene. That would have made the threat of his bloodlust feel real, it would have added a lot of spice and drama and a tinge of eroticism to their relationship, and it would have been hot! But no. Sex is evil, and Edward sees it as his responsibility to protect Bella’s “innocence.” When he finally does bite her to suck out another vampire’s venom, it happens… offscreen. And then when Bella begs him to turn her into a vampire, he’s horrified by the idea: I glared at him. “I may not die now… but I’m going to die sometime. Every minute of every day, I get closer. And I’m going to get old.” He frowned as what I was saying sunk in, pressing his long fingers to his temples and closing his eyes. “That’s how it’s supposed to happen. How it should happen. How it would have happened if I didn’t exist — and I shouldn’t exist.” I snorted. He opened his eyes in surprise. “That’s stupid. That’s like going to someone who just won the lottery, taking their money, and saying, ‘Look, let’s just go back to how things should be. It’s better that way.’ And I’m not buying it.” “I’m hardly a lottery prize,” he growled. “That’s right. You’re much better.” He rolled his eyes and set his lips. “Bella, we’re not having this discussion anymore. I refuse to damn you to an eternity of night and that’s the end of it. — Stephanie Meyer, Twilight “Eternity of night.” Bullshit, Edward’s not nocturnal. Most of Twilight takes place during overcast days, and the vampires sparkle in sunlight. Despite the title, there’s no real element of nocturnality. Could you imagine Edward singing “Music of the Night”? I couldn’t. Edward doesn’t have a sensual blood vessel in his body. The thing is, Bella’s actually right about vampirism being like winning the lottery. It kind of is in Meyer’s universe. Her vampires are eternally beautiful, strong, and powerful, and they have almost no weaknesses. In fact, they have very few traditional vampire traits at all — they aren’t nocturnal, they don’t sleep in coffins, they don’t even have fangs. They just have really hard teeth that inject venom, and while venomous vampires is a cool idea… no fangs? Really? Meyer wasn’t familiar with vampire lore when she wrote this book, and it shows. Her vampires completely lack traditional vampire characteristics, beyond bloodthirst. Yes, that makes them a unique take… but if you replaced the bloodthirst with wings, you’d get a story about angels, without having to change literally anything else — Fallen and Hush Hush can attest. The reason why the sparkling thing is mocked so incessantly is because it was Meyer’s only real contribution to vampire lore. The result is vampires that don’t really feel like vampires, and everything that makes vampires sexy gets lost. Going back to Orenstein’s interpretation, I think that there’s more to be gained from leaning into the sexuality of vampires. We should not encourage this outdated and sexist idea that women have an “innocence” that needs to be “protected.” If the vampire lover is male sexuality viewed through the eyes of women, then the female protagonist needs to be able to embrace the voluptuous danger of it. She needs to be able to sink her own fangs into that apple of Eden on the cover of Twilight, instead of it always being held at arm’s length. My favorite example of this kind of vampire romance done well is Tanz der Vampire, an Austrian musical. In it, the devilishly debonair Count von Krolock falls in love with the innocent ingenue Sarah, but also really wants to bite her. I remember watching the show-stopping love duet “Totale Finsternis” (it’s “Total Eclipse of the Heart,” but the lyrics are more along the lines of “Music of the Night” and in German), and thinking, this is what Twilight should have been. During this number, Sarah is wearing a white dress to symbolize her innocence and purity, but with a red shawl and red boots to symbolize her budding sexuality. She sings about her confusing and irresistible desire while von Krolock seduces her, and meanwhile the chorus of vampires sing about how she will soon die. This one song captures everything I was talking about in the first section. It’s a literal 80s power ballad that somehow manages to be dark and sensual, you feel Sarah’s mixture of fear and attraction, you’re left wondering whether Krolock is sincere or not. He has his own gut-wrenching number about how difficult it is to cope with bloodthirst, and how he remembers each victim he’s killed. This show perfectly demonstrates the dual nature of vampirism: The vampires promise humans the ability to indulge in all their deepest and darkest fantasies (something Edward does not promise Bella in any capacity), but it’s not actually all that great to be a vampire. The vampires are tormented by ennui, and hunt humans for entertainment as much as sustenance. They desire the authentic human connection that vampirism denies them. Sarah isn’t that naive — she knows what she’s getting herself into. She’s frustrated with her father’s suppression of her sexuality, so she happily embraces Krolock, who engages it. She already gets enough “protection” from her father, so why would she also want her vampire lover to be restrained? The whole point of being a vampire is to be unrestrained! By the end of the show, (spoilers) Sarah has become a vampire and is wearing a completely red ballgown to symbolize that she has embodied her sexuality, and she shamelessly bites the male protagonist who came to rescue her. Twilight could have explored all of these themes, but it doesn’t. Vampire romances definitely can work. They’re a gold mine of drama and interesting themes to explore. But in order for them to work, the author has to actually go there. They have to be willing to realize the potential of the ideas that are suggested by the premise. They also have to have enough skill as a writer to pull it off. Now, I’m not making any claims about myself. But as an experiment, I want to compare the first kiss scene in my Shadowbook to the one from Twilight: Tension sparkled in the air between us. I’d felt it simmering there all night, and now it was impossible to ignore. Astor leaned forward, and almost on instinct, I pushed him away. A torrent of emotions crashed through my mind, my heart…. My first thought was that there was no way a goddamn prince would have any interest in a dirty, sullen foster kid — this was a trick, he was trying to get at me, he wanted something from me… Astor looked thunderstruck. He put a hand to his lips and looked briefly icy, then embarrassed, then pitifully disappointed. Another feeling rose up out of the mishmash and asserted itself more clearly than all the rest. I blew my chance. I wanted to kiss him! He was singularly the most gorgeous person I’d ever laid eyes on, and his lips looked so plush and inviting. Before I knew what I was doing, I’d closed the gap between us and our lips touched. Astor settled into it almost immediately, then kissed me back with full fervor. Kissing Astor was like gripping a lifeline. It consumed me. It was like being filled with light. And then it was over, and we were staring at each other, inches apart like we’d been in the ballroom. For a moment, I was worthy of loving. And then that moment was over and we were both staring directly forward as though we weren’t sitting right next to someone we’d just kissed. “Thank you,” said Astor, after a pause. “Thank you,” I responded. I’d like to think this scene is more warm and emotive than the one from Twilight, but I don’t really trust my own judgement. What do you think? I’m hoping that I’ll be able to use this story to write about my protagonist’s healthy exploration of her own sexuality, and transition from a dismal childhood to a more promising adulthood. Astor, meanwhile, is unapologetically sexualized. He presents himself as an object of desire both for my protagonist and for the readers. Also (being my self-insert), Astor is as emotional as Edward is stoic. Astor is the type to try and actively destroy the ingenue’s “innocence” through his seduction, but my protagonist is no ingenue. The overall message of my novel will be that you can surrender to the intoxicating allure of your dark desires, and that as long as you’re willing to work through it, there is no catch. I read the first chapter of Meyer’s Midnight Sun, which is Twilight as seen from Edward’s perspective. The first chapter consists of all the events that Edward exposited about in his confession. We see him genuinely contemplating the murder of an entire classroom of students, just to get at Bella, and fighting to stop himself. Edward feels much more like a vampire from his own perspective, in which we experience the horror of vampirism directly. So far, I’m impressed. I hope that it’ll give me what I felt was missing from Twilight. * I realize that in this answer, I discuss vampire romance in a solely heterosexual context. I think that discussing gay vampire dynamics deserves an answer of its own, since there’s a lot of material to cover. (Also I need to actually read Carmilla before I write that.)

The Secret History and Dark Academia

I need to answer this, because I’ve been thinking about it a lot since finishing The Secret History back in February. Note that this answer contains spoilers, and that it will be long. The Secret History was certainly a good book, but I can’t say for sure whether I liked it or not. The latter half of it worsened my anxiety. I continue to not really be a fan of murder stories. But I’m still glad that I read it, just for the memes. I feel validated that the rest of the fandom collectively agrees that Francis is the best character. It’s a pity he was so underdeveloped in comparison to the rest of the Murder Clique. Camilla’s creepy, Richard should have just forgotten about her and gotten with Francis instea— Sorry, what was I saying? Oh, right, “Dark Academia” and missing the point. This meme is actually a pretty good example. It’s clearly meant to be tongue-in-cheek, but if you took it at face value, it seems to say that Richard’s destruction of his own life was worth it because Francis is sexy. No one actually believes that, but it’s funny because anyone who’s read the book can relate to being extremely taken with Francis and the rest of the clique. We all felt the same way Richard did when he first laid eyes on them. Here’s the initial description of Francis: "The third boy was the most exotic of the set. Angular and elegant, he was precariously thin, with nervous hands and a shrewd albino face and a short, fiery mop of the reddest hair I had ever seen. I thought (erroneously) that he dressed like Alfred Douglas, or the Compte de Montesquiou: beautiful starchy shirts with French cuffs; magnificent neckties; a black greatcoat that billowed behind him as he walked and made him look like a cross between a student prince and Jack the Ripper. Once, to my delight, I even saw him wearing pince-nez. (Later, I discovered that they weren’t real pince-nez, but only had glass in them, and that his eyes were a good deal sharper than my own.) Francis Abernathy was his name. Further inquiries elicited suspicion from male acquaintances, who wondered at my interest in such a person." I, too, was taken by this description. I wondered bitterly why I’d never met a man who looked like this before, because that might have actually motivated me to start dating. Richard’s male peers also aren’t the only ones who express “suspicion” over his response to Francis — the entire fandom has collectively agreed that Richard is obviously attracted to Francis, but denies it (even to himself) because of the social stigma against gay and bi people in the 80’s. (And given Bunny’s absolutely shocking homophobic comments, I don’t really blame him.) This description also highlights what exactly “Dark Academia” is as a concept: Richard salivates over Francis’ pince-nez, which he wears purely for aesthetic reasons — they don’t have lenses, and he doesn’t need them to see, so the only reason he wears them is for that Victorian aesthetic. They pair well with his billowing, cloak-like black coat. The central idea of The Secret History, and the one it deconstructs, is introduced at the very beginning as what Richard considers to be his tragic flaw: “a morbid longing for the picturesque at all costs.” Essentially, putting aesthetic before literally everything else. This is the same idea that’s deconstructed in The Picture of Dorian Gray (a book that really should be talked about more among people who like Dark Academia). I’ve already written an entire essay about my thoughts regarding hedonism and aesthetics in that book. Somehow, I absolutely loved that book for how decadent it was, despite it also being, presumably, a cautionary tale about why hedonism is bad. I argued that it wasn’t, because Oscar Wilde wrote it, and his preface (which explicitly warns the reader not to overanalyze, and instead to appreciate art purely for its aesthetic value) suggests something different. Maybe I was just trying to justify my own commitment to hedonism even after having read it. The Secret History is more blatantly a cautionary tale than Dorian Gray, so it’s about time I wrote my thoughts on it and how it relates to the aesthetic movement it spawned. First, I should say that my own investment in The Secret History didn’t have anything to do with the “Dark Academia” aesthetic, not at first. It actually had to do with Dionysian madness. I read this book because I was promised a story inspired by The Bacchae. Actually, I think it’s accurate to say I read this book for religious reasons, and those reasons are perfectly expressed by Julian at the start of the book: “The more cultivated a person is, the more intelligent, the more repressed, then the more he needs some method of channeling the primitive impulses he’s worked so hard to subdue. Otherwise those powerful old forces will mass and strengthen until they are violent enough to break free, more violent for the delay, often strong enough to sweep the will away entirely. […] But how glorious to release them in a single burst! To sing, to scream, to dance barefoot in the woods in the dead of night, with no more awareness of mortality than an animal! These are powerful mysteries. The bellowing of bulls. Springs of honey bubbling from the ground. If we are strong enough in our souls we can rip away the veil and look that naked, terrible beauty right in the face; let God consume us, devour us, unstring our bones. Then spit us out reborn.” I am being completely literal when I say that this idea forms the core of my religious beliefs. I genuinely believe that it is important to connect with the “primitive, emotive, appetitive self,” that exploration of these repressed qualities are necessary for the healthy functioning of both individuals and society, that it is dangerous to deny the forces of “darkness, unreason, chaos” and “the irrational.” I can only imagine what it must be like to be introduced to this concept through this book! Perhaps most readers don’t think too hard about it. Perhaps they look at this and view it as a thematic thread for a book and nothing more. I doubt that many readers take it as seriously as I myself do. But although I felt elation at seeing this idea so beautifully expressed on paper (by someone who was not me), I knew that I was about to see it deconstructed. I hesitated to quote it in this answer, Sarah McLean's answer to What was ritual madness according to the Greeks who worshipped Dionysus?, because I knew it wouldn’t look good in light of the entire novel. I knew that quoting this passage and meaning it would look like I had missed the point. I began to see memes that said something like, "Donna Tarrt writes an entire cautionary tale about throwing a Bacchanal and going crazy, ruining your and your friends' lives. But I, immune to critical analysis, still want to throw a Bacchanal." The person who wrote that meme is a person who does understand the point that the book is making. They’re being self-deprecating by calling themself “immune to critical analysis,” because their takeaway was still that throwing a bacchanal sounded so much fun. They’re joking about that dissonance. It seems as though many other readers feel the same — they got the point, but they want to throw a bacchanal anyway. Because they too are seduced by the ideas of the duplicitous Julian? Or maybe because of this glorious description of Dionysian ecstasy that Henry gives us? “It was heart-shaking. Glorious. Torches, dizziness, singing. Wolves howling around us and a bull bellowing in the dark. The river ran white. It was like a film in fast motion, the moon waxing and waning, clouds rushing across the sky. Vines grew from the ground so fast they twined up the trees like snakes; seasons passing in the wink of an eye, entire years for all I know.... I mean we think of phenomenal change as being the very essence of time, when it's not at all. Time is something which defies spring and winter, birth and decay, the good and the bad, indifferently. Something changeless and joyous and absolutely indestructible. Duality ceases to exist; there is no ego, no "I," and yet it's not at all like those horrid comparisons one sometimes hears in Eastern religions, the self being a drop of water swallowed by the ocean of the universe. It's more as if the universe expands to fill the boundaries of the self.” [...] "How do you know what Dionysus is?" said Henry, a bit sharply. "What do you think it was we saw? A cartoon? A drawing from the side of a vase? "I just can't believe you're telling me you actually saw—" "What if you had never seen the sea before? What if the only thing you'd ever seen was a child's picture — blue crayon, choppy waves? Would you know the real sea if you only knew the picture? Would you be able to recognize the real thing even if you saw it? You don't know what Dionysus looks like. We're talking about God here. God is serious business." I have felt like this! Perhaps my own experiences haven’t been quite so intense. I don’t think I’ve ever literally lost my mind, but I’ve gone into trance and felt like the universe has expanded to fill the boundaries of the self. I have felt that something that is changeless and joyless and indestructible. I have seen Dionysus. I grumble internally whenever I run across the theory that Julian himself was the “Dionysus” that Henry and co. saw; although that’s a valid interpretation, I resent any attempt to apply a rational explanation to this. The whole point of it is that it’s not rational. Attempting to explain it undercuts the authentic mysticism of it. I want to grab the person who made that meme by the shoulders and tell them that they can throw a bacchanal! That they should throw a bacchanal, and embrace the ecstasy of the Mad God! That it’s possible to do that without literally killing someone. But I felt my own doubts creeping in as well. How could I possibly justify my belief in light of this book, where the bacchanal ends up ruining the lives of all the members of the Murder Clique and destroying their bright futures? Of course, if there were no murder, there would be no story — it’s a thriller novel — but still. If I want to have intense mystical experiences, how do I know that I won’t come out of them with blood on my hands? When I posed this question on Reddit, the consensus from other Dionysians was that the Greek virtue of moderation is key. I’ve written before in some of my other answers about how Dionysus is not a god of excess. He’s the god of alcohol, and everyone has a different alcohol tolerance — there’s a point at which drinking makes you tipsy enough to have fun at a party but not really face any consequences, and a point at which drinking makes you crazy and violent and capable of potentially life-ruining acts. Know your tolerance. For as long as I have believed in this concept, I have also believed that it is important to find safe outlets for this darker part of our souls — theater, video games, creative work, role play, sexual fantasies, and so on. It’s why Dionysus wears masks. As I was reading this book, I also watched The Dead Poets Society, another cornerstone of Dark Academia, because I’ve been a literature student for years and I realized I hadn’t actually seen the whole thing. My takeaway from that film is that the 1950’s weren’t really good for anybody, even the straight, white, wealthy men that supposedly had it made. Being in that kind of stifling environment would destroy anyone’s mental health. And, while Dead Poets Society is far less overt in its Dionysian themes, they’re there. Niel’s dream is to be an actor, and theater literally has its roots in Dionysian worship. A Midsummer Night’s Dream in particular has a lot of Dionysian themes. The Secret History takes place a few decades later, in the 80’s, but if we assume that the members of the Murder Clique grew up in the same sort of stifling environment as the kids in Dead Poets Society, then the violent intensity of their bacchanal makes a little more sense. If you release what Julian refers to as the “pressure valve” and go all in, all at once, then yeah — the results won’t be pretty. In a sense, that’s what The Bacchae is about. A repressed king refuses to willingly embrace Dionysus, and so Dionysus destroys him as a natural consequence. If Pentheus hadn’t tried to stop it and hadn’t let the pressure build, it wouldn’t be a tragedy. I was extremely disappointed that Richard himself never participated in a bacchanal. I thought Bunny’s death was going to be a second bacchanal — I thought the Murder Clique was going to form a cult of worship and select one among them to be their sacrificial victim. I wanted Richard to experience that same mystical intensity, and perhaps also the “carnal element to the proceedings.” Instead, the book turned into Crime and Punishment, which isn’t among my favorite classic books I’ve read. After having been so beautifully introduced, the Dionysian thread wasn’t even addressed again in the second half. It only sort of comes back, once: The intensity of [Henry’s] gaze frightened me. “What?” “You don’t feel a great deal of emotion for other people, do you?” I was taken aback. “What are you talking about?” I said. “Of course I do.” “Do you?” He raised an eyebrow. “I don’t think so. It doesn’t matter,” he said, after a long, tense pause. “I don’t, either.” “What are you trying to get at?” He shrugged. “Nothing,” he said. “Except that my life, for the most part, has been very stale and colorless. Dead, I mean. The world has always been an empty place to me. I was incapable of enjoying even the simplest things. I felt dead in everything I did.” He brushed the dirt from his hands. “But then it changed,” he said, “the night I killed that man.” I was jarred — a little spooked, as well — at so blatant a reference to something referred to, by mutual agreement, almost exclusively with codes, catchwords, a hundred different euphemisms. “It was the most important night of my life,” he said calmly. “It enabled me to do what I’ve always wanted most.” “Which is? “To live without thinking. […] That surge of power and delight, of confidence, of control. That sudden sense of the richness of the world. Is infinite possibility.” This is the most Dorian Gray moment in the whole book. In fact, I’m just now wondering if Henry Winter might have been named for Lord Henry “every experience is of value” Wotton. Henry has resorted to pursuing the picturesque at all costs, even moral costs, becuase the experience matters more than anything else. Henry is numb to the world, and only felt truly alive when he murdered somebody. Therefore he, and to a lesser extent everyone else, chases after extreme experiences because they are the only way he can feel anything. It takes Keating’s “Carpe Diem” philosophy a little too far. Honestly it reminds me of the Warhammer 40K deity Slaanesh, the god of pleasure, which incites its followers to commit more and more extreme and depraved acts of violence to have more and more intense and novel experiences. Dionysus is often stereotyped as being like this, but he’s not. In a way, knowing that this is Henry’s motivation makes me feel a little safer, because I have the opposite problem — I feel everything. I feel so intensely that it takes very little effort to work myself up into a heightened state, so I have the gift of being able to have these frenzied mystical experiences without the need for mind-altering substances or anything else that could be dangerous. I feel somewhat immune to the “hedonism paradox,” because I never stop enjoying things I like. I don’t become desensitized. I am like Henry in that I live too much in my head, but it doesn’t take something so extreme for me to come out of it. But for those who feel nothing, it takes something extreme for life to appear vivid. Julian seems to have a similar perspective on life. He compares Bunny’s death to a Dostoyevsky novel (ostensibly Crime and Punishment) — this comparison implies that Julian had an idea of what was going on the whole time, but it also makes it plain that what Julian really cares about is the aesthetic of tragedy. Yes, Bunny’s dead and his family is grieving, but it makes for such excellent art! Julian never even seems to grieve — he has the precise opposite reaction to his student’s death that (Dead Poets spoiler) Keating has to Neil’s death. And then when he finds proof that his students really did kill Bunny, he books it, abandoning them. He was always ice-cold, colder than Henry. I saw him for the first time as he really was: not the benign old sage, the indulgent and protective good-parent of my dreams, but ambiguous, a moral neutral, whose beguiling trappings concealed a being watchful, capricious, and heartless. I must admit, I’m proud of myself for having seen the red flags early when it came to Julian. Richard idolizes him throughout the novel, but I thought it was obviously culty how he deliberately isolated his students from the rest of the school, monopolized their classes, encouraged their sense of intellectual superiority to the point where they felt themselves above morality. They also fetishize Ancient Greece, and as much as I love Ancient Greece, I definitely wouldn’t want to live during that time (especially not as a woman). TV Tropes’ YMMV page for this book calls Julian’s conditioning fascistic, “as though they were in a world where the second world war never happened.” The biggest red flag is the following: “Other members of the literature faculty disagree with my teaching methods and you will run into problems if someone else gains the power to veto my decisions” is Julian outright telling Richard that he doesn’t want his students to be influenced by anyone else’s ideas or opinions. He’s a charismatic cult leader. (With such a setup, I’m disappointed that he played such a small role in the plot itself. There should have been a literal Dionysian cult!) It’s one thing to have come to understand Julian’s ideas about Dionysian madness entirely through my own study and experience. It would be quite another to learn them from him in this sort of context. Julian does literally “cultivate” his students into this romanticized ideal of wealthy, effete academics, who live by the values of Ancient Greece and are out of touch with the modern world. (Henry knows everything about the Ancient World, but didn’t know that the moon landing happened.) From a distance, they look ethereal and otherworldly, and inherently superior to everyone else, so of course Richard wants to join them. Of course the audience wants to join them! But this belies their mental health issues, their impractical approach to money, their detachment from reality. It’s all a farce. Dark Academia is the celebration of the farce. I have now finally arrived at your question: Does my appreciation of that farce indicate that I have missed the point? I hope that reading my personal thoughts gave you an idea of why people might be attached to this book, and why we might try to justify our attachment to the ideas that it deconstructs. But you asked about the Dark Academia aesthetic specifically, and there’s more going on there. There’s a lot of valid criticisms of Dark Academia — that it centers on a very narrow artistic “canon” created almost entirely by white men, that it glamorizes mental health issues, and that it whitewashes problematic themes in literature and art. All of these are relevant to The Secret History, but I want to focus on two that I think are most relevant to this particular novel: pretentious elitism, and aestheticism (i.e. “morbid longing for the picturesque at all costs”). I should preface this by saying that I’m a relative newcomer to Dark Academia as an internet aesthetic. Though I’ve been some romantic flavor of Goth for years, I wasn’t into Dark Academia specifically until after I read this book. Reading it made me start to notice Dark Academia-ish things in my actual life. I, too, yearned to spend lazy days at Francis’ castle with a group of scholar friends. Reading The Secret History actually motivated me to start working on grad school applications again, and go on some college visits, because now I knew what kind of “vibe” I wanted. I swooned over Yale’s campus. Everything from libraries to dorm buildings looked like cathedrals with absolutely glorious gothic architecture, with pretty trees and lampposts in between. But I realized slowly that this idealized view of academia is something I already have. I’m a humanities student who wears Goth clothes, drinks chai lattes, listens to melancholy piano music, and studies occultism in my spare time. I would be a textbook stereotype of a Byronic Hero (if I were male), and I act like a tortured artist, despite (or maybe because of?) the relative ease of my life. Meanwhile, the campus I lived on in college nearly matched this description from the book: "It was one of those mysterious, oppressive days […] where the mountains that lowered at the horizon were swallowed up in fog and the world seemed light and empty, dangerous somehow. Walking around campus, you felt as if you were in Olympus, Valhalla, some old abandoned land above the clouds; the landmarks that you knew — clocktower, houses — floating up like memories from a former life, isolated and disconnected in the mist." So I seem to have already existed within the idealized sphere of the Dark Academia aesthetic, and only now have I started consciously contributing to it. I think that allows me to speak as a member of this little subculture, but also gives me the necessary distance to be able to commentate on it. On a certain level, I think that the elitism is part of the appeal of Dark Academia. We want to feel like we’re isolated from everyone else because of our intelligence, wit, and scholarly ability. We want to be a secret cabal of handpicked intellectuals. I’ve found myself falling into this quite often, actually. I have enough arrogance and vanity to fantasize about that, and also to be proud of my academic prowess. I forget that not everyone has the academic skills that I have cultivated. I expect that everyone knows to consider context before they quote something, or has the research skills necessary to support a claim. I demand that other Quorans close-read Harry Potter, because “that’s just good literary criticism.” I’m also proud of how I’ve applied all my research and analytical skills to the study of occultism, which is an even more exclusive and (literally) esoteric field. (The occult field also has a problem with elitists, and the histories of occultism and academia are intertwined; most of the members of nineteenth-century occult societies like the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn were academics who could translate seventeenth-century grimoires. Fraternities and sororities were literally modeled after these sorts of secret societies.) While I understand how much fun it is to feel like you know things that everyone else doesn’t, expressing this feeling makes you look pretentious. Let’s say you think you’re the only kid in your high school class who really appreciates Shakespeare — everyone else moans about how boring and difficult “Old English” is, when you know perfectly well that it’s Early Modern English. However, you probably aren’t the only person in your high school class that appreciates classic literature, and you definitely won’t be if you study literature in college. Appreciation for classic literature isn’t really all that uncommon, and people also have different ideas of what constitutes “classic” literature. Don’t say that you’re the only person in your school who understands Shakespeare, because you’re most likely not. And Shakespeare is among the more accessible writers! Let’s say you turn tail and instead claim you’re the only person in your school who understands Ulysses by James Joyce; good luck being taken seriously. There’s also the ancient problem of gatekeeping; the first thing Henry says to Richard in class is grill him about which Classical authors he’s read, and whether it was in translation or the original texts. Don’t do that. I think that the best way to mitigate elitism is to share information, instead of gatekeeping. It’s the age of the internet — information is everywhere! Being educated doesn’t make you inherently superior, but it does give you a valuable resource that you can share with other people. Speaking of resources, related to academic elitism is literal classism. The Secret History, especially the first half, is packed with “wealth porn” — ultra rich characters living idle lives, contemplating philosophy in their castles, buying impractically expensive pens, going on trips to Italy, committing murder in their spare time… it’s fun to fantasize about what that’s like. This is also deconstructed, but it was one of the most fun parts of the early chapters. There’s also the reality that higher education is, unfortunately, a privilege of the wealthy in the United States. I’m well aware of how lucky I am to even be able to consider a graduate program in the humanities, becuase for many, it would be a waste of time and money. In a sense, the study of humanities becomes a kind of “wealth porn” in and of itself. Dark Academia sometimes encourages the classism that the humanities (especially Classics) has had for decades, and worked so hard to break down in recent years. Again, I think the answer here is to make classic literature and scholarship more accessible, not less accessible. As for the aesthetic piece, I haven’t encountered too many people who literally value aesthetic at all costs. I’m also biased into thinking that valuing aesthetics isn’t inherently dangerous, because I value aesthetics myself. But, going back to that first meme, how many of us would be roped into Julian’s clearly-dangerous cult because his students look so magical? Beauty is terror, and valuing beauty means somehow confronting its savagery. The “dark” part of Dark Academia literature is the tragedy — murder, intrigue, melancholy, the gothic, etc. — and that’s just fine. The Dark Academia community is obsessed with The Secret History specifically because so much of it is fatal, wrong, and damaging. That’s what makes it “dark.” Writing and reading about such things is entertaining and a useful outlet. But we should not idolize the sorts of lives that the characters lead. The toxic environment of Dead Poets Society that prohibits boys from studying theater is not a good thing. The culty dynamic of the Greek Class in The Secret History, even less so. It’s not healthy for a person like Julian to be so coldly detached that he looks at a murder investigation and the death of one of his own students as an aesthetic, as something out of a Dostoyevsky novel. But that sense of being in a novel is also what’s attractive about Dark Academia. Dark Academia is very at home on Tumblr, and although Tumblr is not nearly as toxic now as it was in the early 2010’s, it’s still one of the fandom capitals of the Internet. Tumblr-people like to think of ourselves as existing within art, within a novel. Perhaps not Dostoyevsky, but still. That’s why that foggy day on my campus was so magical, becuase it felt like I was in a novel or in some sort of unreal place. I’ve noticed that I am literally more present when I’m in real places that feel magical. I come out of my own head, live more fully. For introverted people who spend most of our lives hiding from the world and spinning inside our own heads, or inside books, the idea of such an experience is compelling. We want to be characters from novels whose mental health issues are a result of interesting intrigue, mystery, and magic. It’s fun to project our own lives onto a tragic stage, because doing so makes life more meaningful (or at least more interesting). If viewing my life through a Dark Academia lens helps bring me out of my head and be more present in reality, then I don’t think it’s a bad thing. But I could see how it might be unhealthy for a person to use this toxic and tragic literary world as escapism. Multiple times while reading The Secret History, I had to come out of it and remind myself that it isn’t my life, that I’m okay, that I haven’t committed murder and I have nothing to be anxious about. Self-awareness is key. Most of the Secret History memes are self-aware, because their authors acknowledge that they shouldn’t literally throw their lives away for Francis Abernathy (etc). The humorous memes provided me with a much-needed reprieve from the book itself. Based on these sorts of posts, it seems as though most readers know that the characters of The Secret History don’t really have enviable lives, that in fact they’re all extremely pretentious. The Secret History is certainly one of the most pretentious books I’ve ever read. It made a boatload of Classical references and I only got about half of them. It also introduced me to some new vocabulary words that could be called SAT-words, back when the SAT still had that. But The Secret History gets away with its pretentiousness because it suits the setting and the characters, and because it’s self-aware. Even the early parts of it include biting criticism of just how out-of-touch the Greek Class are. You’d get the sense that, if Henry had lived in this decade, he’d write all of his essays by hand and have no idea how to Google something. I think as long as you enjoy the fantasy of being a wealthy scholar while also acknowledging that you shouldn’t aspire to be so out of touch, it’s okay. In short, if you understand that The Secret History is a criticism of academia and how it is a criticism of academia, you can still choose to appreciate Dark Academia anyway. In summary, I think that some people who are obsessed with The Secret History have missed the point of the book. But I don’t think that to appreciate Dark Academia in light of The Secret History is to miss the point of the book. I don’t think that Dark Academia is the aesthetic equivalent of Julian Morrow, who seduces intrepid humanities students into deeply dangerous ideas with his charisma and a few inspiring ideas about the sublime. But in order to prevent it from becoming that, we need to maintain self-awareness, healthy perspective, and understand context. In short, we need the academic skill of critical analysis. That, and aesthetics are like alcohol — a little bit can be fun and can help you to have incredible experiences. Too much can drive you mad or make you do things you might regret. Know your tolerance. I think now that I’ve gotten myself into Dark Academia, I’m going to stick with it, and help to make humanities more accessible while also delighting in a dark aesthetic. I’ll try to be the Francis Abernathy I want to see in the world.

Ritual in The Egypt Game

The Egypt Game! I read this in fourth grade, and not only did it kick off an entire Ancient Egypt phase, it also inspired me to form my very own Egypt Game with two of my friends in middle school. I remember making a uraeus headband out of cardboard and stick-on gems. A few months ago, I read The Witch’s Path by Thorn Mooney, and she mentioned that The Egypt Game had been an influence on her as a kid. Soon after, I rediscovered the book in a thrift shop, and it felt like a synchronicity. I knew I had to reread it. The Egypt Game is about four kids — April, Melanie, Marshall, and Elizabeth — who begin an Ancient-Egypt-themed LARPing game in a lot behind an antique shop. They set up a makeshift temple in the lot and begin play-acting as priestesses, pharaohs, and whatnot, constantly expanding the ideas that they’re working with and organically developing a story out of it. They give each other Egyptian-themed nicknames like Marshamoses and Neferbeth. They worship Egyptian gods in their temple and plot a conspiracy against the young king. They write their liturgy on rolled onionskin paper. They decorate Set and Isis’ altars and give them offerings. It’s half-play, half-serious, and almost a study of how and why religion exists in the first place. "So that was the way Set started — Set the god of evil and black magic. At first he was just supposed to be a character in that particular game, and that first day he was represented by a picture of a man with an animal’s head that Melanie drew on a piece of cardboard and tacked to the wall. But once he got started, he seemed to grow and develop almost on his own, and all out of control; until he was more than evil, and at times a lot more than Egyptian. For instance, at different times, his wicked tricks included everything from atomic ray guns to sulfur and brimstone. But, actually, that was the way with all of the Egypt Game. Nobody ever planned it ahead, at least, not very far. Ideas began and grew and afterwards it was hard to remember just how. That was one of the mysterious and fascinating things about it." About halfway through, a pair of sixth-grade boys join the four original Egyptians, having caught them at it. Elizabeth invites them to play on the condition that they don’t tell anyone else about the Egypt Game. The boys end up getting really into it, because it’s just that damn cool. It’s more involved, more detailed, and more dynamic than most children’s games, and the ritualism is one of the most fun aspects of it. Iif even the older boys who tease girls are enthralled by it, then who wouldn’t be? Part of what’s appealing about The Egypt Game is that its characters have a fantastical secret double life, but the story doesn’t involve any actual magic. The gods don’t start actually talking to them, there’s no Egyptian curse that afflicts the kids, there’s no weird supernatural horror tropes, there’s not even any magical realism. For once, I’m relieved that it doesn’t have any true fantasy elements; that makes the entire story feel plausible and grounded, and actually helps to emphasize the value of imagination. The Egypt Game is a form of playing pretend, but the kids still take it deadly seriously, which puts it somewhere between fantasy and reality. We’re never given a reason to think that the children literally believe the Egyptian gods are real — in fact, we’re told that they don’t — but they behave as if the gods are real, complete with prostrating themselves before their altars and lighting incense, while chanting hymns that they wrote themselves. They know it’s a game, which is what makes it feel safe and fun, instead of like they’re actually messing with supernatural forces. But they’re also able to suspend their disbelief enough for their pretend-worship of the gods to feel real while they’re doing it. At that point, what’s the difference? I can understand why Thorn Mooney was influenced by this book, and why she thought it relevant to bring up in her book on witchcraft. The most powerful rituals are those that bring us out of the adult headspace that makes us doubt ourselves, and into the dreamspace where whatever we can imagine feels completely real. Looking around my room, I see so many cool decorations and props that I would have killed for when I was a child, and I feel saddened that I do nothing with them. My imaginary games have moved entirely into my own mind, with no costumes and props, and are rarely satisfying because I overcomplicate them. The Egypt Game is a reminder of what those imaginary games felt like back then, and of how to play them without overthinking. That makes it a potential guidepost towards approaching ritual as an adult. Ritual really should be this kind of spontaneous theatrical play, loaded with fun props and whatever other psychodrama, with a child’s suspension of disbelief. Returning to this book as an adult helps me to remember what it was like to be a kid, when the line between “playing pretend” and actual magic felt nearly nonexistent. The Egypt Game was deeply relatable for me specifically, because my games mostly revolved around imagination and role-play. I didn’t have too many other friends who could keep up with me, and I was also really obsessed with ancient history. When I was a kid, I interacted with the same gods that I currently worship in my imaginary games, and mine were all about Greece. I threw paper oak leaves to talk to Zeus, and never questioned whether he was real or not. I made a golden olive crown out of pipe cleaners and construction-paper-leaves that I individually cut out and painted with glitter, in much the same way that the kids in the book make Egyptian costumes by hand. I drank white grape juice and pretended it was the nectar of the gods. Did I know it was just white grape juice? Yes. Did it matter? No. Theological questions — what the gods are, if or why they exist, why they do what they do, how they relate to humans, etc. — are all the province of adults. Kids don’t need to ask those questions. Kids just need a makeshift altar made out of a birdbath, a statue, and a few shiny rocks. A sheet of tin propped on fenceposts is a temple if you treat it like one. Would I recommend this book to kids? Hell yes, I totally would. I’d recommend it to adults, too! It’s an incredibly interesting story that celebrates imagination, and has the same kind of magical vibe as something like The Night Circus, despite its lack of magic. It inspires kids to go off and create their own Egypt Games. Also, it gets points for its diversity. A portrayal of kids with different ethnic backgrounds casually playing together would not raise too many eyebrows now, but this book was published in 1967. This is really impressive rep for its day. According to TV Tropes, Disney tried to buy the rights to this book to make it into a film, but the author refused to sell them unless they guaranteed a multiracial cast. That wasn’t happening back then, but it could conceivably happen now. This book provides a nice retrospective on just how far diversity in media has come in only a few decades. It’s aged very well. Its story manages to be both simple and profound, a bit bittersweet without being tragic. And to this day, I haven’t read any other book like it.

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About Sarah McLean

Hi, I'm Sarah McLean. I'm a writer with interests in mythology, religion, literature, and occultism. I spend a lot of my free time writing online articles about these topics, and I also write fantasy novels.

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